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 People. As it is we are all just trying to live... When you try to start your new life, at the beginning you thought everything will turn out fine. No matter what. But sometimes when deep down, you know you started on the wrong place, it will never really be that simple. In life one of the things you must accept is difficulties. But still we have to keep on moving. There may be wrong and bad on the life I have in this place but I know there are also good lessons and happiness. Along the way. The one thing that I have come to realize is that people are different. And so we mostly disappoint each other but we know life moves on. I probably regret that I introduce a wrong me on this place. I come out as someone who is cold and proud. I expected too much from people that I didn't really care what would they thought about me. But I realize I like to go back to someone who gave hope and comfort on everyone that I encountered to. I guess I was wounded and full of anger when I came here a
Keep Going... What kind of place I am right now, is exactly the place where I can see people use power and money to gain strength and control people. A place where ambitions and cruelty are. This kind of place really exist even on a small environment like my office. Like this City, Tokyo. I guess this kind of lifestyle does exist everywhere no matter where. Even on my own country. But having to encounter it by your own is still, for me, sad. People who have the power enjoy manipulating people using their authority. Not for the better but to feed their own ego. But I believe that people choose to do wrong things because it's easy to do. Even though they know it is not right, but by repeatedly doing it and not raising any voices around them, may seems it's fine. This place I am right now is not the worst. It still is minimal compare to other space and place where competitiveness exist. Wanting to be more. To do better and to achieve more. But when I look into it, being on the bot

The beginning

 Have you ever found yourself lost? That is a question that most people encountered. The feeling that you are lost make you wanted to search on that path, that deeply inside your heart desired. A time come to me where I encountered that question. I thought then that my life is so plain and simple, and deep down inside, I wanted to know what will make it exciting to look forward to everyday. Really, there was a lot inside me then, that only now I come to realize. Light and darkness, love and hatred, hope and despair and mostly desire, longing and dreams. I knew since I was a small I will never have an ordinary life like most people around me have. My life may seem simple and plain but it has a lot of darkness. On my country, probably about 10% are rich, 30% are middle class and the other percentage are poor. And my family is one of those other percent. Being poor doesn't make you especial nor ordinary. It's how you live it that can make it different. I have ordinary family thoug